Beatrix Mae..

For a long time I had this photographer’s crush on this edmonton based model. She’d worked with some photographers I liked, and had modelled some of tasha’s designs along the way. I sent an overly exuberant email off to her way back then professing my photographers love which generally kills any hope of working with someone as you seem a bit too eager, and it did for a while.

Then she moved to Calgary and we began discussing a shoot. Somehow we’d always be out on schedules, or one of us would get sick, or I would be overcome by my normal bouts of massive inadequacy and chicken out. yes, I still have those after all these years with some people. Then we finally set a date.

I’m suffering from a malaise of shooting indoors, in the same location too often and for too long and it’s really soured my eagerness to shoot, which tends to happen this time of year when outdoor shoots are iffy and the daylight is short but while she was getting ready i decided to hang some cloth against the wall to give some extra depth to things and give a sense of space I haven’t been doing in shoots lately. things fall out of habit so easily.

I had my lights in place early for this one and we tripped into beautiful light from the outset. It buoyed my spirits and I felt even if my eye was faltering the light might save me. sometimes the gods are kind in moments of weakness and within about 20 frames we had a publish worthy shot.

I was hoping for some grace and beauty and i found deep wells of it hiding between awkward moments. Like so many young models she hides in girl energy when unsure, but my prediction that she had a beautiful woman lurking unmanaged behind that was founded and it slowly eased out.

I did my best to capture it for you.